Friday, May 29, 2009

Mary's Letter

What frightens you?
What makes the hair on your arms rise, your palms sweat, the breath catch in your chest like a wild thing caged?
Is it the dark? A fleeting memory of a bedtime story, ghosts and goblins and witches hiding in the shadows? Is it the way the wind picks up just before a storm, the hint of wet in the air that makes you want to scurry home to the safety of your fire?

Or is it something deeper, something much more frightening, a monster deep inside that you've glimpsed only in pieces, the vast unknown of your own soul where secrets gather with a terrible power, the dark inside?

A Great And Terrible Beauty
pg 87

Monday, May 11, 2009

WOOT

chicken rocked!! brownies? not so much... who knew that all purpose wouldn't rise?? i didnt!!!

sheesh!! oh well it was yummy!!

am i running anymore?

Thursday, May 7, 2009

so i don't forget!! :)

4 boneless chicken breasts, pounded to 1/2 inch thickness
1 egg
1/2 cup milk
seasoned bread crumbs
2 to 3 tablespoons olive oil
8 slices mozzarella cheese, or more
1 jar (16 oz) spaghetti sauce
Parmesan cheese
Preparation:
Whisk together the egg and milk. Dip the chicken breasts in milk and egg mixture and then in bread crumbs. Heat olive oil in a large skillet over medium-high heat. Brown the chicken in the hot oil on both sides until golden, about 3 to 4 minutes on each side. Set chicken in a baking dish.

Slice 8 pieces of mozzarella cheese and put two on each chicken breast. Pour 1 jar of your favorite spaghetti sauce over all. Sprinkle with Parmesan cheese and a little more mozzarella and bake at 350° for about 25 to 30 minutes, or until bubbly. Serve with spaghetti, garlic bread and a nice green salad.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Try

fuck.. so she thinks that by using that bastard she'll break my boy... hell no... just hell no bitch.. ain't gonna happen


i dare you to DIE

by fire


c'mon try it... it's not that hard


i will hurt her if she breaks my boy.. it will happen .. just try and stop me

Monday, April 20, 2009

GAH!!

i missed so many people over break!!!

i got to sleep for the first weekend and monday then i went to the outer banks for tuesday thru thursday. then on friday i stayed out from 6pm to 2:30(-ish) am at Jay's 16th.... then on saturday i got BURNT at the car wash (we earned $344) then for the afternoon (until 6ish) we were with amanda, katelyn, maddie, aaron, andrew (WOOT), jay , drake, brent, natalie (mad's friend), and alex.... along with me ma and shay!! then on sunday we had a full night with me dancing in 2 different dances (one with new harvest -which is amanda's church and my old one- and restoration -which is mine) and singin in the youth praise band for altar call..... it was ruff!! cause i had to call down austin for txtin while the visiting preacher preached..it was hilarious!!!!

I loves me some andrew switzer!! wooot!!!!! (problems..i haz em) so i was verrrry excited!!

gah drama abounded!!! and i had the best time..... other than missin my ppls!!
LONGEST BREAK EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

WOW

wow... we need a new post to offset the timeline.... wait that's what this is!!! lol!!


well now that that's done.... watcha doin????? hello???? anyone there???


i guess not.... i dont like tests... or the rain. i HATE rain.. it's wet and nasty.. i wanna go back to sleep.. if only if only the woodpecker cried!

~ciaosa~

Monday, March 23, 2009

Twilight Timeline from Twilight Lexicon

Timeline





TW# - Twilight and chapter number
NM# - New Moon and chapter number
EC# - Eclipse and chapter number
BD# - Breaking Dawn

PC# - Personal Correspondence #
SMW – Stephenie Meyer Website
PC-TL – Stephenie Meyer’s personal corrections

Twilight Timeline

300 BC

* Stefan and Valdimir form a coven in Romania (BD32)

400 BC

* (?) Aro, Caius, Marcus, and their wives form the Volturi (NM19)

500 AD

* Romanian coven and Volturi War (BD32)

1000

* (?) - Kate, Tanya,and Irina born and transformed by Sasha– Denali Coven (PC1)(BD2)
* Plague of the Immortal children (BD2)
* Sasha killed by Volturi (BD2)

1640

* (?) - Carlisle Cullen born in London, England. (TW15)

1663

* (?) - Carlisle changed into a vampire. (PC1)

1700

* Carmen and Eleazar born - Denali Coven (BD30)

1720

* (?) - Carlisle finds civilized vampires in Italy (TW16)

1800’s

* (?) - Benito, a new-born vampire, creates the first army of new-borns and starts a war in Mexico. The Volturi manage to cover his tracks, but this leads to the creation of more newborn armies in the southern United States. (EC13)

1843

* Jasper Whitlock born in Texas (EC13)

1850’s

* Nahuel born in South America (BD38)

1861

* The American Civil War breaks out – Jasper serves in the Confederate Army eventually making the rank of Major. (PC2) (EC13)

1863

* (?) - Jasper is changed into a vampire by a woman named Maria.(PC2) (EC13)

1880

* (?) - Jasper forms a bond with a new-born named Peter. Peter and a female vampire, Charlotte, who was attracted to, run off together. (EC13)

1885

* (?) - Peter returns and helps Jasper escape from Maria. (EC13)

1895

* Esme Anne Platt born in Columbus, Ohio.

1901

* June 20 – Edward Anthony Masen born in Chicago to Edward and Elizabeth Masen. (PC1)
* (?) - Mary Alice Brandon born in Biloxi, Mississippi. (PC1)

1905

* (?) - Carlisle moves to Columbus, Ohio and practices medicine. (PC1)

1911

* Carlisle tends to a sixteen year old Esme, who has a broken leg. One month later, Carlisle leaves for his new area – possibly Chicago, Ill. (PC1)

1915

* Rosalie Lillian Hale born in Rochester, New York (PC1) (SM-TL)
* Emmett McCarty born in Tennessee. (PC1) (SM-TL)

1917

* Esme marries Charles Evenson who leaves to fight in WWI shortly there after. (PC1)

1918

* Carlisle works as a physician in Chicago, Illinois. (TW14)
* September – Influenza Epidemic claims the life of Edward’s parents. Carlisle saves Edward and he begins his life as a vampire. They possibly move to Ashland, Wisconsin. (TW14) (NM2) (PC1)

1919

* Charles Evenson returns from war to his wife Esme. (PC1)

1920(?)

* Alice changed into a vampire by a worker at the mental asylum. (TW22)
* Esme becomes pregnant and leaves her husband to move to Ashland. (PC1)
* Carlisle works as a physician in Ashland. (PC1)

1921

* Esme’s baby dies and she tries to commit suicide. Carlisle finds her and saves her. They fall in love and are married. (PC1)

1927-31

* Edward leaves Carlisle and the family to experiment with another way of life. He eventually returns after a few years, unable to continue taking human life. (TW15) (SM-TL)

1931

* (?) - Carlisle moves his family to Rochester New York where Esme and Edward pretend to be brother and sister. (EC7)

1933

* Rosalie becomes engaged to Royce King. She is beaten and abused by him and his friends and left for dead. Carlisle Cullen finds her and changes her into a vampire. (PC1) (SM-TL) (EC7)

1935

* Emmett found by Rosalie after a bear attack. She brings him to Carlisle and he is changed into a vampire. (SMW) (SM-TL) (EC7)

1936

* (?) - Carlisle and family move to the area south of Forks called Hoquiam and make the treaty to stay off the Quileute land. (PC4)

1948

* Alice finds Jasper and they become companions. (TW14) (SM-TL) (EC13)

1950

* Alice and Jasper find Carlisle and join his family. (TW14) (SM-TL)

1987

* September 13 – Isabella Swan born to Renee and Charlie Swan in Forks, Washington. (NM1)

1989

* March – Renee leaves Charlie, takes Bella to Riverside, CA. (TW1) (SM-TL)

1993

* Renee and Bella move to Phoenix, AZ. (SM-TL)

1996-2002

* Bella visits Charlie in Forks for one month in the summer. (TW1) (SM-TL)

2003

* The Cullen family arrive in Forks, Washington. (TW1)

2005 -

* January
o 17th (Mon) – Bella Swan moves to Forks, Washington. (SM-TL)
o 18th (Tue) - She meets Edward Cullen who is drawn to her blood. Edward leaves Forks for Alaska for one week to avoid killing Bella. (TW1)
o 24th (Mon) – Edward returns to Forks (TW2) (SM-TL).
o 25th (Tue) – Car accident (TW3) (SM-TL)
o 26th – March 1st (Tue) – Edward avoids Bella ( TW4)(SM-TL)

* March
o 2nd (Wed.) – Bella is asked to the dance by Mike, Eric, and Tyler. Edward spends the night in Bella’s room without her being aware of it.(TW4) (TW14)
o 3rd (Thurs.) – Bella sits with Edward at lunch - Blood testing – Bella nearly passes out and Edward drives her home. (TW5)
o 4th (Fri) – Edward hunts with Emmett (TW5)
o 5th (Sat) – Bella goes to First Beach and meets Jacob Black – Jacob tells Bella about the cold ones being the enemy of the wolf - Bella has a horrible dream about Edward. (TW6-7)
o 6th (Sun) – Bella searches the Internet for information about vampires – she walks in the wood to clear her head. (TW7)
o 7th (Mon) – Very sunny – Edward does not attend school (TW7)
o 8th (Tues) – Sunny again – Edward does not attend school – Bella shops in Port Angeles and is nearly attacked by thugs – Edward saves her and admits he is a vampire and that he can hear everyone’s thoughts but Bellas. (TW7-8-9)
o 9th (Wed) – Edward and Bella let it be known they are a “couple” – Bella asks all the questions. (TW10)
o 10th (Thurs) – Edward’s turn to ask questions. (TW11)
o 11th (Fri) – Edward leaves after lunch to hunt with Alice. (TW12)
o 12th (Sat) – Edward takes Bella to the Meadow. They spend the night together with Edward just holding Bella as she sleeps.(TW13-14)
o 13th (Sun) – Edward introduces Bella to his family – the baseball game – James targets Bella – Bella tells her father she is leaving Forks. (TW15-16-17-18-19)
o 14th (Mon) – Alice, Jasper, and Bella arrive in Phoenix (TW20)
o 16th (Wed) James tricks Bella into running away and meeting him – Bella nearly dies and Edward is forced to drink her blood to save her from becoming a vampire. (TW21-22-23)
o 18th (Fri) – Bella awakens in the hospital with multiple injuries. (TW24)



* May –Edward escorts Bella to the Prom (TW Ep) (SM-TL)



* September
o 13th (Tues) – Bella’s 18th birthday. Party at the Cullen’s – Bella cuts her arm and causes a near riot – Edward takes her home and stays with her though the night. (NM1-2)
*
o 14th (Wed) – Edward is distant and refuses to stay will Bella at night. (NM2)
o 15th (Thurs) – Edward tells Bella that he and his family are leaving Forks and Bella forever – Bella goes into some sort of shock – a tracking party finds Bella nearly comatose. (NM3)



* October – December – Bella exists in a zombie-like state only doing the bare minimum needed to really survive.

2006

* January
o 16th (Fri) – Bella goes out with friends to a movie to appease Charlie – Bella discovers that when she puts herself in danger, she seems to hear Edward’s voice. (NM4)
o 17th (Sat) - Bella buys two motorcycles to put herself in further danger – She enlists the help of Jacob Black to fix up the bikes - Bella sleeps without dreaming or screaming. (NM5-6)
o 18th (Sun) - Bella and Jacob buy parts for the bikes – they eat dinner with the Clearwater family. (NM6)
o 19th (Mon) – Bella talks to friends at school about the local bear sightings – it has been one year since Bella arrived in Forks – Bella visits the empty Cullen house – Jacob has finished Bella’s motorcycle.(NM6-7)
o 20th (Tue) – After work, Mike invites Bella to the movies.(NM7)
o 21st (Wed) - Jacob comes over to study and stays for dinner. (NM7)
o 23rd(Fri) – Bella and Jacob work in the garage to fix his bike. (NM7)
o 24th(Sat) – Bella worked at Newton’s and then did homework with Jacob again. (NM7)
o 25th (Sun) – Jacob finished both bikes – They see Sam and his gang cliff diving – Jacob teaches Bella how to ride a motorcycle – Bella wrecks and gets a cut on her head, but she doesn’t mind – Bella gets seven stitches in the ER and tells Charlie she got hurt in Jake’s garage. (NM7-8)
o 28th (Wed) – Bella again visits the ER but tells Charlie it came from a fall while hiking. (NM8)
o 30th (Fri) – Bella enlists Jacob’s help in finding the meadow. (NM8)



* February
o 14th (Sat) – Jacob visits to do homework. Bella invites him to the movies on Friday with her friends from school. (NM9)
o 16th (Mon) – Bella tells Mike about going to the movies as a group. (NM9)
o 20th (Fri)– Jacob finishes his Rabbit and brings it by to show Bella – Everyone but Mike cancels for the movie – Bella, Jacob, and Mike go to the movies – Mike gets sick – Bella notices that Jacob feels very hot – Jacob takes Bella home and admits that he isn’t feeling very well – Bella calls his house later that night and Billy tells her Jake is sick and she should stay away. (NM9)
o 21st (Sat) – Bella is sick and doesn’t go to work. (NM9)
o 22nd (Sun) – Bella talks to Jake on the phone and he tells her to stay away until he calls again. (NM9)
o 23rd-27th (Mon-Fri) – Bella keeps calling Jacob only to be told he can’t come to the phone. (NM10)
o 28th (Sat) – Harry Clearwater tells Charlie he has been having heart trouble – Harry explains that Jake has mono and that Bella needs to stay away – Bella is suspicious and decides to give it one more week. (NM10)



* March
o 4th (Sat) – Billy tells Bella Jacob is feeling better and that he is out with his friends – Bella goes looking for the meadow on her own where she sees Laurent – Laurent explains that Victoria sent him to find Bella and that he intends to kill her – Five huge wolves appear and chase Laurent away from Bella. (NM10)
o 7th (Tue) – Bella calls Jacob, but gets no answer. (NM11)
o 8th (Wed) – Bella calls Jake’s house every half hour. (NM11)
o 9th (Thus) – Bella sits in her truck in front of Jake’s house. (NM11)
o 10th (Fri) – Bella figures out that Jake must be in Sam’s gang and talks to Charlie about it – Bella gives Quil a ride home and he confirms that Jake is now with Sam’s gang – Bella goes to see Jake and he says he can’t hang out with Bella anymore – Charlie confronts Billy about the situation – Jacob comes into Bella room at night and apologizes but says he still can’t tell Bella the truth – he reminds her of the scary stories he once told her and tells her to think about them. (NM11-12)
o 11th (Sat) - Bella has a nightmare and wakes up to realize that Jacob is a werewolf – Charlie tells Bella that the wolves have attacked someone and that they are going to shoot the wolves – Bella goes to warn Jacob – Jacob explains that they killed Laurent but there is still another vampire around – Bella tells him about Victoria – Jacob explains a few aspects of being a wolf – Paul and Jacob get into a fight – Bella visits with the pack at Emily’s house. (NM12-13-14)
o 12th (Sun) - Bella spends all day at La Push. (NM15)
o 13th (Mon) – First day of Spring Break. (NM15)
o 14th (Tue) – Bella works and then visits Jake – He explains more about being a werewolf and Bella explains more about the vampires. (NM15) 15th (Wed) - Bella hangs out at Emily’s house and then walks on the beach alone – Jake promises to take her cliff diving. (NM15)
o 16th (Thurs) – Bella jumps off a cliff alone and Jacob rescues her – Harry Clearwater dies from a heart attack – Jake and Bella almost kiss – Alice returns. (NM15-16)
o 17th (Fri) – Alice and Bella catch up. (NM17)
o 18th (Sat) – Charlie goes to Harry’s funeral – Edward is told that Bella is dead – Alice and Bella race to Italy to stop Edward from killing himself. (SMW) (NM17 – 18)
o 19th (Sun) – Alice and Bella make their plans while on the plane to Italy. (NM19)
o 20th (Mon) – Bella stops Edward from stepping into the sun – the Volturi meet with Edward, Alice, and Bella – the Volturi agree to let them go so long as they promise to make Bella a vampire soon. (NM20-21)
o 21st (Tue) – Edward, Alice, and Bella fly back to Forks. (NM22)
o 22nd (Wed) – Edward explains why he left Bella and that he will never leave her again – Bella puts her mortality to a vote – Edward agrees to change Bella himself is she will marry him. (NM23-24)



* April
o 7 (Sat) – Jacob confronts Edward and Bella about the treaty and gives Bella back her motorcycle. (NM Ep)



* May
o 14th (Mon) – Bella reads in the paper about the trouble in Seattle. She gets her acceptance to the University of Alaska. (EC1)
o 15th (Tue) - Alice has a vision of Victoria. Edward convinces Charlie to let him take Bella to Florida. (EC2)
o 18th (Fri) - Edward and Bella leave for Florida.
o 19th (Sat) - The wolves and the Cullens chase Victoria and get into a fight over crossing the boundary line. (EC4)
o 20th (Sun) - Bella has a chat with her mother about Edward. They return home from Florida. Jacob calls Bella for the first time in weeks. (EC3)
o 21st (Mon) – Jacob confronts Edward in front of school. Edward tells Bella that Victoria had been in Forks. (EC3)
o 25th (Fri) – Edward goes hunting. Bella runs off to LaPush to visit Jacob. Jacob tells Bella in detail what happened over the weekend with Victoria. (EC4) Bella learns about imprinting and that the wolves don’t age while they phase. (EC5) Bella avoids Edward and goes to Angela’s house to help her with graduation announcements. Bella declares that she is “Switzerland.” (EC6)
o 31st (Thurs) - Bella is kidnapped by Alice after work. Bella sees that Edward has purchased a bed. (EC6) Rosalie tells Bella her story of how she became a vampire. (EC7)
* June
o 1st (Fri) – Bella escapes from school with Jake. (EC7) Bella tells Jacob that she will be a vampire very soon and he gets angry. Edward returns home and they come to an agreement. Bella sleeps in his arms in his bed. (EC8)
o 2nd (Sat) – Bella can’t find certain personal items and Edward realizes that another vampire has been in Bella’s house. The Cullens debate who it was. (EC9)
o 3rd (Sun) – Bella calls Jacob and he and Edward agree to let Jacob come over to investigate. (EC9) Jacob learns that Bella will be changed at graduation and cuts his hand. Edward explains more about what’s going on in Seattle. He agrees to let Bella go to LaPush while he is hunting. Bella sees Edward’s motorcycle. He drives Bella to the boundary line where they meet Jacob. (EC10) Bella attends the bonfire and learns all about the werewolf legends and the third wife.
o 4th (Mon) - Bella finds that Edward has read a part of Wuthering Heights.(EC11) Alice tells Bella that she is having a graduation party. Bella sees the graduation poster. Bella and Edward talk about marriage. (EC12)
o 5th (Tue) - Bella reads the paper about the events in Seattle. (EC12) Jasper tells his story. The Denali vampires won’t help the Cullens because Irena was involved with Laurent. (EC13)
o 6th (Wed) – Alice insists on going ahead with the party. Bella suggests that she could help if she were turned into a vampire now. Renee cancels her trip to Forks on account of Phil’s broken leg. (EC14)
o 7th (Thurs) – The first day of finals.
o 8th (Fri) – Second day of finals. Bella spends the afternoon in LaPush. Bella invites Jacob to the party. Jacob tells Bella he is in love with her. (EC14) Jacob kisses her and she punches him. Edward threatens Jacob while Charlie is near by. Bella learns that Emmett and Jasper have a wager on how many people she will kill. (EC15)
o 11th (Mon) – Alice gives Bella something to wear for graduation. Bella figures out that everything is connected and that Victoria is behind it all. Bella graduates and tells Edward what she discovered. (EC16) The Cullens make plans during the party. Jake and the wolves show up and make an alliance with the Cullens. Jake gives Bella a wolf charm bracelet. (EC17) The wolves meet with the Cullens in the woods for their first batch of training. Edward and Jacob work together to plan a way to hide Bella’s scent during the fight. (EC18) Bella asks Edward to sit out the fight.(EC19)
o 12th (Tue) – Bella sleeps for most of the day. Edward goes hunting. Alice makes arrangements with Charlie for Bella to be gone for a while. The wolves and vampires meet for their second night of instruction. Bella learns that Leah Clearwater is a werewolf. (EC19)
o 13th (Wed) - Bella spends the night alone with Edward at his home. He gives her a “crystal” charm for her bracelet. He agrees to make love to her while she is human if she agrees to marry him first. They are officially engaged. He shows her the engagement ring. (EC20)
o 14th (Thurs) - Bella leaves her scent all over the forest. Edward explains how her blood no longer tempts him the way it used to. Jacob carries Bella to the camp site. (EC21) Jacob sleeps next to Bella to keep her warm. Edward and Jacob have an honest conversation while Bella sleeps. (EC22)
o 15th (Fri) – Jacob learns that Edward and Bella are engaged and runs off. Edward brings him back. Bella begs Jacob not to fight. She asks Jacob to kiss her. (EC23) Feeling badly for it, Bella urges Edward for some intimacy and he insists on waiting. The newborns attack the Cullens in the clearing. Victoria and Riley attack Edward, Seth, and Bella at the camp site. Edward rips off Riley’s arm and Seth finishes him off. Edward rips off Victoria’s head. (EC24) Victoria and Riley’s remains are burned. Jacob is wounded and both Seth and Edward “feel” it though the werewolf bond. The Volturi arrive to clean up. They murder the newborns that are left behind. (EC25) Bella goes to check on Jake and has to say goodbye to him for good. (EC26) Edward finds Bella crying in her truck and takes her home. Bella spends the night crying in his arms. (EC27)
o 16th (Sat) Bella tells Edward she will survive so long as she has him. They go to talk about the wedding with Alice. Alice shows her the wedding dress. Bella asks Alice to be her Maid of Honor. (EC27
o (?) Edward asked Charlie for Bella’s hand in marriage. (BD1) (Note - This date is not specified but this probably happens in the evening of the 16th.)
o (?) Bella tells her mother that she is engaged. (BD1) (Note - This date is not specified but this probably happens a few days after Charlie learns of the engagement.)
o (?) Bella truck breaks down and Edward buys Bella a Mercedes Guardian (BD1) (Note - this date is not specified but it takes place a few weeks after the 16th)

o (?) Jacob receives an invitation to Bella and Edward’s wedding along with a note from Edward. Grief stricken, Jacob phases and runs off. The pack lets him go. (EC Ep) (Note – This happens sometime between June 16th and Aug 13th.)
o (?) Charlie puts up posters in every major city along the Olympic Peninsula looking for Jacob. (BD1) (Note - this probably happened a week or so after Jacob left.)
* August
o 12th (Sat.) Bella calls Seth to see if he has any news of Jacob. Alice does the final fittings for Charlie and Bella. Edward attends his bachelor party. (BD1)
o 13th (Sun) Edward and Bella are married. (BD3) Jacob attends the reception and nearly starts a fight. (BD4) Edward and Bella leave for Isle Esme.
o 14th (Mon) Edward and Bella make love for the first time. (BD5)
o 15th - 20th Bella has strange dreams and her appetite changes. (BD6)
o 21st (Mon) Bella and Edward make love for the second time. (BD6)
o 31st (Thurs) Bella determines that she is pregnant. Edward and Bella return to Forks. (BD7)

* September
o 7 (Thurs) – Jacob learns that Bella has returned and is very sick. He assumes she has been changed into a vampire. (BD8) He visits the Cullen home to find that Bella is pregnant. Edward asks Jacob to kill him should Bella die in child birth. (BD9) Jacob explains to his pack what has happened and Sam orders Bella and the child to be killed. (BD10) Opposing this decision, Jacob takes his place as an Alpha wolf. Seth follows him. (BD11)
o 8 (Fri) - Leah joins Jacob’s new pack. (BD12) Bella drinks blood to sustain her pregnancy. Jared talks to Jacob about returning to the pack. Jacob refuses. (BD13)
o 9 (Sat) Bella’s pregnancy worsens with another broken rib. Carlisle determines that Bella will go into labor in four days. (BD15)
o 10 (Sun) Jacob and Leah talk about the reasons for imprinting. Edward hears the thoughts of the baby for the first time. (BD16) Edward asks Jake for permission to break the treaty by trying to save Bella by turning her into a vampire. Jake agrees. (BD17) Bella goes into labor. Renesmee is born. Edward changes Bella into a vampire. Jake imprints on Renesmee. (BD18)

** Note – not all dates match up in reality. The dates are accurate for the book. Some dates are given to us, like March 20th in New Moon. But there are days missing when using an exact calandar for refrences. Thus, the book may say it took a week, when on our time line it will only take a day or two becasue we had to compromise and lose time to match up to the specific dates given to us.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Ran

Ha!! the running from  my past is done!! i am gone and i've left the rat race behind... there is no reason for me to continue here all that it causes is my soul to rot slowly next to my spirit....

 

i am gone and i am NOT coming back!! ha! i just wanna jump for joy..... i think i will (in my mind!) i just did!!! lol!!

 

 

                                       ~Fin~

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

GRR

gah!! i hate this stupid computer... it's evil!!!!!!! it wouldn't let me log on!!! i think that i shall kill it?? hmmm sounds good... maybe not.....i dunno....



is bored

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

SAT

i hate this class.. really really badly.. it sucks to have to go through.....


i just wanna sleep the day away

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Calculus

Calc is gonna kick my but
.................yep...................thats about it..................

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

FINAL!


i give up my desires to run... to run away from the problems and darkness that he places on me... i will never be able to lose this... he will find me wherever i run!


i need to FIND MY ESCAPE!!!!!!

help me

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

AAHHHHHHH!!!!!

my dumb selfish ass by: xXForeverdeadXx


I feel like leaving this place
My life is a giant disgrace
My heart is in pieces
The pain never ceases
A living hell I endure
The chronic heart ache always sore
I tried to my strangle myself on Wednesday
I don't want to live anymore; my family will have to pay
How will I do it, how will I end my life
Never growing old; never acquiring a wife
What weapon will I choose
The options are lose or lose
A feeling of emptiness inside
A part of me has died
The rest will soon be dead
When I shoot myself in the head
I can see my reflection on the blade
As my memories have begun to fade
The blood flows freely
I smile gleefully
I know the pain will be over soon

Suddenly my mind leaves my carcass
I now realized I was a selfish ass
I could have endured the pain
For the pain I have brought upon myself
Is only minor compared to the pain
In which I have selfishly inflicted upon the people whom I love


HE'S DRIVING ME CRAZZY W/ WORRY!!! HELP!!

Monday, February 9, 2009

WTF?

Dear all by: xXForeverdeadXx (aka Bobby!!!!!!!!)


Dear friend, dear family, dear all whom I hate.
This is my chance... My time to escape...
My time to shine, I've just crossed the line.
I swallowed some pills and am slowly dying.

I've taken my life, with no kind of regret.
I came to realize, my life isn't shit.
Reality hates me, fantasy ignores me.
But this shiny little knife, all but adores me.

I cut my wrists, my blood falling into mists.
The vein slowly hisses, as I look into abysses.
I draw the steel, from is red warm womb.
Trail the blood on this note, spelling out "Doom".

I cry acid tears, they burn out my eyes.
They take the sights away from this world I despise.
I still feel the pain, I still hear the torrment.
As my soul in my body, still remains dorment.

I get out the rope, tie up the noose.
I've remained here far to long, it's time to be set loose.
I hang my head is sorrow, bidding my farwell.
I jump off the chair, and fall down to Hell...

Friday, February 6, 2009

HI All

and of course by all i just mean.. me.. LOL i is funny!! aint it fun just pretty much talking to yourself online??? i know RIGHT???????



well guess what?? i am having a happy day today!!! my katie-lady, kinky, bobster, jenny, and emily are ALL Here!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i feel so happy..

will now burst into song!!!!!~

okay i'm done now!!!!!!

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Find this... :?

find what i have missed in my time here. ... i can't figure out just what i've done......... i don't know WHAT to DO!!! it's so confusing!!!!!


JUST GIVE ME A MOTHERFUCKING SIGN YOU BASTARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


you know who you are... you just don't know what i mean.. darling i miss you.

Why???

why oh why do i care.. about him??? about his troubles??? why can't i get his face out of my head??? why?? WHY??!! he won't leave me be and it's killing me!!!!!


he needs to leave me alone!!! i can't find my way out of the hell he's placed me in.. and truthfully... i don't want to leave.. i may not need it. but he needs me.. and all that i can give................ save me from the confusion




~ need to find the reason ~

GRRR

those fuckin bitches i could kill them for what they did to him

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Heyo!

i have a question.... what would you do if a 14 yr old male friend of yours had 2 condoms in his wallet??


i kinda want to slap him upside the head then get rid of the things.........


grr! so confused!
she is so stupid!
she works on a computer everyday and she doesn't know hom to turn off a laptop
IDIOT!!!
damn, i am so sick of having to do everything for her

Thursday, January 22, 2009

if i have to deal with one more person today.... i'll go off... and i mean big time not "oh grr" but "I WILL KILL YOU WITH A BLOODY TOOTHPICK!!" type of go off!!!


she is at it AGAIN!!! i swear just thinkin of her makes me want to kill something.. or maybe punch it?? idk yet!

grrrrr

BITE ME BITCH!

oh if i could only say those 3 little words to her! i'd be so happy!!!!!!

Which character from Twilight are you?
Carlisle Cullen

You are very compassionate. Your passion is saving people. You hate to hurt people.
What Electric personality quirk are you?
The Paranoid One

You always think everyone is after you or has an ulterior motive. What? Who said that... Why! What the f*ck did he mean by that? Why are they HIS friends?

Faith

Dance with God, he will never lead you where you cannot come through.



“The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference. The opposite of art is not ugliness, it's indifference. The opposite of faith is not heresy, it's indifference. And the opposite of life is not death, it's indifference.” - Elie Wiesel

“Faith is believing in things when common sense tells you not to” - George Seaton

“Faith is like electricity. You can't see it, but you can see the light.” -anon

“To one who has faith, no explanation is necessary. To one without faith, no explanation is possible.” - St. Thomas Aquinas

“The smallest seed of faith is better than the largest fruit of happiness.”- Henry David Thoreau

“Faith is not trying to believe something regardless of the evidence; faith is daring something regardless of the consequences”- Sherwood Eddy

Faith is like the wind, we can't see it, can't feel it, but when it moves ... it can sway even the strongest believers


Can't Stand

i cannot stand people that decide that just because they can't participate in something no one else should either!!

she tried to stop us from doing a dance because she couldn't be in it!! grrrrrr.... wanna yell.. was SO close to doin so last night.. just once?? please??

darn... didn't think you'd let me... yea yea i know.. bite my tongue... grr my tongue's blue now cause of this bitch... god i hate her!!

leave me be!!

oh! and hi jayson if you've read this.... lol! alison told me that you'd be readin it!! leave me a comment if you really read it!

ciao

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

LOL!!


ok... right now i'm in civics.. (yeah yeah wat ever!! i know!! i have to go to school and every other school in the district is out!) and we're supposed to be writing a one page paper on which amendment in the bill of rights that we would get rid of and support it. well i decided to get rid of the second amendment... don't yell it's just for the paper!!!.. don't act like that!!!!!



so.. now i'm bored.. and running out of ideas!!


grr

Friday, January 16, 2009

Werd!

mmmmmk! is annoyed..... how hard is it to NOT act like a bitch?? not that hard right??? i know!! "katie stop reading this!! NO IT'S NOT ABOUT YOU!!! psycho! NO NOT YOU! ME DUHH!" ok she stopped.. oh wait she didn't oh darn!!! oh well this AIN'T BOUT YOU!! STOP READING!
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ok spaz moment over!!
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so the bitch is like "oh! i hurt this and this and that" and i'm like "bitch! shut the hell up!" she is SUCH A hypochondriac!!! i mean her BOYFRIEND (still think that he needs to grow a pair and fuck her and leave her (see *) or just get RID OF HER!) ~ is annoyed again but i digress~ POPPED HIS KNEE OUT OF PLACE and all she can whine about is the fact that her "back hurts" bitch!

oh! and then when her mom drives up (we're all outside) she starts to CRY! gah! and it's not even believable!! grr!.......

whore.. i wonder how much she gets paid?...... probably not much...

the bitch annoys me to NO end and i would like to get rid of her!

and is gone!

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ok so i don't really want him to do that but if it gets her out of his system then i'm all for it.. but if he didn't have to do that then i would have less guilt... cause i do believe that both of them are FERTILE!

and no PROCREATION allowed! at least not between them.. shudder.. eww!! i just thought about it!! ewwwww!!

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ciao pple!







Thursday, January 15, 2009

Am following.....

following through the door
the one that was shut long ago
with the iron casts
that keep me out
i will find a way in
the only thing stopping
me is
me
i will fight this
bring myself through
the door of life
of death
of love
of hate
of everything and yet Nothing
not here yet not there
i will float until
i find this person that
is keeping me from
me
i will find it
i will follow through
with everything that keeps me
from me
even if it is
me that
keeps me from
Me.....
will find
will know
will Fight!
and now
i can follow
follow through my
missed times
but not through
the door
but the window
the window into the room
the room where my missed times mean nothing
i am but the mouse of lore
looking for my Papa Above

Thursday, January 8, 2009

I SHALL BE BLUNT!

IF I CHOOSE TO EXPRESS MY IDEAS OR COMMENTS THEN DAMNIT I'M GONNA SAY WHATEVER THE HELL I WANT TO!!!!!

if i have to deal with one more wuss that doesn't want to step on FUCKING TOES telling me to bite my tongue, i'll go off!

i have the RIGHT to say what i want.. screw them if they don't like it!!! i am so PISSED!!!!

people that do not have the PASSION to make a dance the very BEST it can be should not be in IT PERIOD!!!!!! i'll tell you right now! i will not tolerate it any more! i will QUIT if they don't man up and show some FORCE!!!!!!! i would KICK THEM OFF THE TEAM!! or at least this one dance...

and if i have to deal with that BITCH one more damn time i will cut all her fucking hair off!!! she is such a HUGE BITCH that is going to bring down one of my best friends.. sometimes i just want to kick him in the groin and say " YOU ARE FUCKING BLIND! SHE IS A WHORE!! SHE WILL BREAK YOU AND I WILL HAVE TO PICK YOU UP AND I WON'T BE ABLE TO DO THAT CAUSE WHEN THAT HAPPENS I'LL BE KICKING HER ASS! WAKE UP BITCH!" she is the one reason .. the ONLY reason why this dance is sucking ASS! gah! the DAMNED BITCH!!! I HATE HER SOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!]
i will calm down soon... maybe not soon enough before someone gets a verbal sparring from me!

BITCH!